If you were to Know Me 30/04/09 Zomeo&Zilliet

If you were to know me..you should know i'm like a knight who can take thousands of stabs and still never backs down..I'm that person who trust in my capabilities and knowing my limits and always trying to go for the very BEST!!!and if you were to know me..I'm a kind of a person who never gives up at trying to excel and be the winner..I've never backed down..but for ONCE just for ONCE I've lost that spirit..today I saw what the world is made up..If you were to know me you would have known that I'm a person who never says "sorry I'm not in the mood" but today I've finally uttered that sentence..today I saw how to accept a downfall created by human's judgement..today I saw that there will be injustice and it takes More than a HIGH spirit to topple down injustice..it's not about a great king arthur that went to a village saying you must fight the war and the pirates and reigns over the GREAT COUNTRY..it takes more than spirit and talent to topple down a great name,it really does ..I saw that today I must admit I've lost..I've lost not because We were not better than the others...I lost because it's human nature..I lost because it would just be an embarassment if We did..We lost because we were too good to win..all my life I've never held my head so high but stood so low


To put it in a better way of sayin..This is the very first time I've never doubt my talent..This is the very first time I motivated my team in other to put their spirits up..This is the very first time I put my team through a psychology session to make him feel how to cry and his tears was flowing like ancient Babylon..This is the very first time an outcome threw me so down that I could never back up..This is the very first time I've ever admit what I did..This is the very first time I motivated everyone and put everybody's hope so high it went crumbling down..BUT what for??It was all POINTLESS..my friends never thought we could have won but i motivated them and put their hopes so high but when it ends it went crumbling,crashing down..it was all shattered..but what for???I've hurt my loved ones in the process but what for???POINTLESS

I must say that today I'm nothing..I must at last admit today I've finally lost the battle of spirit that I've always won easily..

Somehow I just can't follow what I posted in the last post
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;

maybe just maybe Rudyard's word was too good for me to follow..It was so painful that I must let it out..
Today is the day that I've finally been where I've never been before..Such petty place made by human called embarassment..and I must say today I've fell from a place too high that I don't think I can't get up ever again without any scars..


serve man and you'll be frustrated
serve god and you can serve both

IF,that changes my blog title

I read the Poem "If" past few months and our class learned about it few weeks back..well it was good..what i mean is that..the poem really teaches you about life..to me it's like an utility pack people bring to the forest for their aid there..the poem is like advices you need to venture out the real world..life is all about not being pompous treating people the same..LIVING LIFE TO THE MAX!!!it's all about real words that a CARING dad tells his son..it touched my heart when I read it..I have to admit I nearly cried..well it was VERY GOOD..it even says
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
which is freaking true..most of us change from people to people???no more two face Harvey Dent we have multiple characters..well look through it life is something for us to life for us and honour god..we do have to change..and life happily and it's about doing it the right way..And not saying IF i could that IF I could do this..If everybody were to say that..I can say If I were a football player in Chelsea..it is just stupid to be saying IF IF IF...do something achieve it not sit there and blame on everybody..


If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

she forgot??

lol how could she..she forgot???she thought im a pu3 girl???after 5 minutes of chatting..i said i'm nt in pu3 how should i know..and she was like OMFG where did you go???haiz...what's with you dear donkey???

maybe she doesn't care like the pic says..lol

03/04/09

because of the debate competition and we ran out of time..I and fong decided to spent the night at teng's house at the last minute.well we were unprepared because of our teacher was sick and we can't do anything..well we reached at 9.30p.m. teng opened the door so late..ARGHHH..well practically we didn't do anything until midnight and then we started babbling about it..FONG WAS SLOW like a pig.. i didn't bother to help them and only did my stars.. yippiee..needed to wait for themcoz i'm the 3rd speaker..stupid girls..hahaha... well at last we slept at freaking 3a.m..i went into the room and disturbed the dog and he barked at me..i was freaking shocked man..well i was bored and slept at 3.30..the next morning i was late coz fong took so long to scrub her dirty body..lol..ALL YOUR FAULT..and i was freaking sleepy..haiz..all my own fault

28/03/09-Kenny Turned 16!!!

I was basically freaking glad when you decided to throw a party Kenny..well basically the whole day i was out coz i haven't buy the present...AT last i gave a T-shirt p/s:thought of giving ya basketball shoe but then siaow wen gave you one d.. :P ..Well i went at 7.45..I was late because at 7 I was still wrapping the shirt..hehehe..when I reached the BARBEQUE has started....was so excited :P....then saw Kenny who was walking in and out of the house ..he was sweating like a pig...p/s:he went to school to play b.ball but till at night haven't take his bath..OMG!!!smelly ass...Lots of people were there already..some were his neighbours and families..saw Nkt with her shining shirt at the 'appropriate spot",Fong looked naughty RAWR!!!!And arif hair was indescribable,kok pulak came with his pink shirt tucked in..hahaha..then suddenly need to go out to show direction to lawrence[simple directions also you can't understand..pai seh..arif was speeding 100KM/H man..siow...well we started eating at 8.++..Some of Kenny's friends was staring at me..hahaha..maybe they think I eat BABI!!!???p/s:thank you aunty for the special food that was ordered just for me..Felt like VIP!!!hehehe..Then we started making noise LOL..the other guests keep looking at us but the girls couldn't care less..Kenny was freaking busy entertaining his guests so can't kacau him much that day..BTW YOUR DOG KENNY WAS FREAKING CUTE!!!!...they started barbeque but can't eat loh coz got babi...but the sate was splendid...hehe..then saw last year's trip video..was freaking hillarious but then missed lots of them who is not here anymore ermm....it was so fun coz we havent hang out for god knows since when...well everybody gradually started to go home p/s:you all had wish you didn't go out that early..hehehe..we were roaming around the house thinking what to do..then kenny took the guitar out and we started singing..hahaha..though he forgot half of the chords..lol..sang a jay chou's song was so fast man can't catch up with you all..fyi first time i sang it...11.30 joey's mum came..haiz..she particularly came at that time coz she wanted to watch AMERICAN IDOL..lol..p/s:yeah joey adam IS GAY!!!!when i went inside to say bUHBYe to kenny's dad i heard some aunty said in mandarin "that malay boy is very polite la..bla bla bla" was laughing my head off..then went home with natasha's dad..didn't even realize he reached..haiz..so early.. thought of going back at 2a.m. or something..btw teng why you can't make it..it was fun..hehe..KENNY GOT LOTS OF STUFFS arr???1000+++?????hehehe